.Friday, March 21, 2008 'Y
day happened to be shine-d by stars...
Life is so fragile. There is a beginning and the end. One can bring nothing to this world and nothing back when it is time to leave. Sometimes we think about this, what is all the anger, revengeful thoughts and unhappiness in this world? When we have to leave, all these means nothing anymore. We can be very angry with someone but can we bring this anger to heaven? Nope. We can earn alot of money but can we bring to heaven? Nope. Had so much thoughts because of my uncle's funeral. Funeral is a tiring, sad and draining event. Drain one physically and emotionally. Let one think more of the person who had just passed away. Do you want to be remembered as a good person or a bad person? It all comes to an end at your funeral. That is why i think, one livI es to touch others' lives. We should live our lives to help others in need and share love, restore relationships and so on and so forth. Could see and hear that my brother still cannot let go and forgive mum. The wrong things that she had done had been buried deep into my brother's heart. It is so hard to let go now. He said that i was not hurt as much as him. But i would strongly disagree. I am more emotional than my brother. A little thing may not hurt my brother that much compared to me. Everything means differently to different people. Mum hurt my brother in a different way compared to me. I cannot count how much tears i had dropped coz of the hurts over the years. I can still remember how much i had struggled to forgive her and how long it took me to forgive her. It is a long process and i forgave her with God's help. It is not a miracle or a one time immediate magic that one can forgive. It takes a long time and much struggle and fight. That is why God has been so good to me. Humans can fail us and hurt us but God never. God only loves us. God will let us go through difficult and tough times to learn about how to love and forgive. We humans can not do it in our human efforts. Too difficult. Only through God's grace, love and forgiveness, can we slowly learn to forgive. Will just have to continue to pray that my brother can forgive mum one day. Pray that my brother will come to know our God one day. Unforgiveness and bitterness only impairs one's life. Will block or slow us from loving others more completely. Forgiveness can set us free from the heavy burdens that we carry for years. No one can really understand how we feel but God understands. Another thing that i wanna give thanks and glory to GOD is i passed my exams. I managed to pass my exam and got one distinction for one subject. Really thanks to God. Can still remember how little i wrote for my essay questions in my exam. Basically i do not know how to do because tutor gave us the wrong tips. Oh my. REally miracle that i passed. Cheers...